Drug addiction/sobriety

[David.]

Felt stagnation and that I could use responsibility, so I took on the Treasury role for the next three months.

 

[The Process God]

Felt stagnation and that I could use responsibility, so I took on the Treasury role for the next three months.

Treasury role for whom? At any rate, good for you

And keep things straight, dude. If your finances are hurting, don't let a woman exacerbate the issue. Manage your time well.

 

[David.]

Treasury role for whom? At any rate, good for you

And keep things straight, dude. If your finances are hurting, don't let a woman exacerbate the issue. Manage your time well.

For the n.a. group.. I basically do a balance sheet of donations, expenses, running total etc etc.

It's not just finances, dating is tough for a million reasons obviously.. rejection, not having control, self control, logistics, loss time.. lose balance, and less time to focus on doing positive things than you are focusing on self serving stuff.

But yes, spending 30$ every time I want to fuck is also not ideal. And then missing the next days shift because you were up late is exacerbating the issue.

I'm actually thinking it's tough to better my situation.. I work like 20 hours a week to make the equivalent of 45/50k if it was taxed.

To tie that, I'd have to make 30$ at 6 hour daily shifts, and that's a tough thing find.

Bottom line is I keep pushing this solution off and I can't seem to make it my main focus.


Thanks for the support and advice by the way. Always appreciated

 

[David.]

Sex is the new addiction. I have lost all balance

 

[The Oi]

Any progress with mom?

 

[David.]

Any progress with mom?

Fucked her

 

[David.]

We've talked more, it's amiable. It doesn't feel like an issue. I still can't stay interested in anyone more than three days and at this point I'm not even trying. It's much more superficial a venture.

 

[David.]

Found a pic from when I was using of myself.

I'd like to show the difference between now and then but man i was grotesque

 

[David.]

Mom's coming out at the end of the month.

I'm way off balance and in the teeth of sex. I don't seek Good deeds to do, or look at core principles of the steps as my epistemology. So this just seems like whatever.

I'm being pressured to share at the meetings. I don't. I feel arrogant. I'm 3 months in, take a couple a week still, and I these are people 20 years in and my senior.

 

[Mr. Orange]

Dave... reading your posts is exhausting. I can't imagine being you. Have you tried daily meditation for like 15 min to quiet your mind? I think you may need it.

Shifts? I thought you were an accountant.

 

[David.]

Dave... reading your posts is exhausting. I can't imagine being you. Have you tried daily meditation for like 15 min to quiet your mind? I think you may need it.

Shifts? I thought you were an accountant.

This is just a venting thread, my lifes not that crazy. This is just stream of consciousness stuff

The meeting I attend is centered around meditation.. I haven't been practicing lately

I'm in my last semester for accounting, which I likely won't be able to work as, at least for a couple years. I drive Uber right now and do catering

 

[David.]

Tempted lately.

I'm down.

Really worried about the future. I don't handle fall well. The sex is meaningless and I feel alone again.

 

[David.]

Electrician - 4 year apprenticeship, no money for school, defers payment of student loans..

8000 hour program. Start at 15, bump up 2$ every1000 hours. 96000 guaranteed, upon graduation you are in a union job at 42$. Make it thirty years and get 120K the rest of your life.

 

[Jordan]

Electrician - 4 year apprenticeship, no money for school, defers payment of student loans..

8000 hour program. Start at 15, bump up 2$ every1000 hours. 96000 guaranteed, upon graduation you are in a union job at 42$. Make it thirty years and get 120K the rest of your life.

I have a friend who has a union job as an exterminator, which he basically took after graduating college in three years because he had no money for law school, and he loves it. He eventually is planning on going to law school, but for now, he said that he gets paid well enough as a exterminator, and has learned a ton about the world from working in a union.

 

[BMAN]

Also have a union job. It's alright...electrician would be a solid job though.