The mental health thread

[David.]

I go to a new doctor in November. The last one I had was too hot and she wanted to talk about my sexual dysfunctions and all I could do was tell her that everything is fine. I need to find a dude or an old lady.

I have been on wellbutrin but it hypes me up and I say inappropriate things in public spaces. I know I should not say them, but I can't hold it in. It's like I'm going to burst.

Hate getting paired with female docs. It's really just a shit situation

 

[TheLand1287]

The Indians made me depressed. When I haven't been at work... xanax, pot, alcohol, and sleep have been the cure

 

[Phills14]

My mom is on Wellburtrin and Seroquel (for sleep??!) now.. told her it's a bad combo, but she trusts the Doc.

I really don't know what to do. In a way I wanna feel good, but my life really stinks and I don't know if I want to feel Med-Good if you know what I mean.

Another thing, I havn't slept in 2.5 months now.. I don't know what to do and how to address this.. It makes me even more suicidal.

No sleep is awful. Been there, not sure to your extent but there was a stretch where I was getting 2-4 hours a night. It wears you down and everything suffers. There are things you need to work out in your head but some of the things that helped me physically was I added some aroma-therapy things in my bed room. I also did some medication geared towards relaxation and sleep. That seemed to help and break the pattern I was in.

 

[Sir'Dom Pointer]

No sleep is awful. Been there, not sure to your extent but there was a stretch where I was getting 2-4 hours a night. It wears you down and everything suffers. There are things you need to work out in your head but some of the things that helped me physically was I added some aroma-therapy things in my bed room. I also did some medication geared towards relaxation and sleep. That seemed to help and break the pattern I was in.

I fall asleep easily, but it's only for an hour max and then I can't sleep at all.

Should I try sleep meds or it's a big mistake? I don't know what to do.. should I try to visit my GP?

I function only on caffein.. I feel dead otherwise.

 

[Phills14]

Definitely see your GP. I wouldn't take anything unless it's something like melatonin without a dr supervision.

 

[DJTJ]

Hate getting paired with female docs. It's really just a shit situation

Same, but it's because I feel awkward explaining what I'm going through, and Id rather be emasculated about it by another male.

 

[TyGuy]

Same, but it's because I feel awkward explaining what I'm going through, and Id rather be emasculated about it by another male.

I'm having a hard time jerking off on these meds hot doc.

 

[David.]

Same, but it's because I feel awkward explaining what I'm going through, and Id rather be emasculated about it by another male.

I'm not talking about the nuance of sexual addiction with a well balanced female. I'm just not, ever

 

[DJTJ]

I'm not talking about the nuance of sexual addiction with a well balanced female. I'm just not, ever

I wasn't talking about sex.

Just thoughts in general.

 

[David.]

I wasn't talking about sex.

Just thoughts in general.

I'm trying to think of anything else I really wouldn't want to tell a female over a male..

 

[DonGilbert]

I lost both of my parents earlier this year and I am emotionally and physically drained. My relationship is being heavily affected and I drove to a work interview only to walk to the door and walk right back to the car. My father suffered with manic depression, schizophrenia, and bi-polar disorder so I understand that I am genetically predisposed to these, and I also suffer with PTSD (much better now but still have episodes) after a near death experience in 2010. As a result, chronic pain led me to a short opioid addiction for a year or so but I have since joined the “natural herbs” club instead. (Why are we not funding this!?) I actually even recieved help from a former Buckeye Coaching legend, but I was so afraid to go to therapy that I did not take advantage of this opportunity. I feel like I have no more goals in life as I was a football coach with aspirations of college jobs at some point. I coached HS and even worked with former NFL coaches... However, I have recently come out and have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for over a year now. All of my former teammates and best friends have ignored me since and it’s obvious why... This area isn’t the most accepting and football is sacred here.

Overall, I just feel empty without my parents anymore. My sex drive is about as powerful as a week 16 Browns offense and my drive to live is out of gas at the moment. Honestly, I don’t even need responses. I feel like typing this alone was a minor form of therapy. (I’m not going to harm myself either, ever.)

Thanks for letting me rant!

 

[DJTJ]

I'm trying to think of anything else I really wouldn't want to tell a female over a male..

Just general feelings, for me personally, make me feel emasculated if it's to a female doctor over a male doctor.

I think it's more so, with a male doctor, I leave out the bs, and will open up more to a female.

Is what it is, don't really mind either way.

 

[David.]

I lost both of my parents earlier this year and I am emotionally and physically drained. My relationship is being heavily affected and I drove to a work interview only to walk to the door and walk right back to the car. My father suffered with manic depression, schizophrenia, and bi-polar disorder so I understand that I am genetically predisposed to these, and I also suffer with PTSD (much better now but still have episodes) after a near death experience in 2010. As a result, chronic pain led me to a short opioid addiction for a year or so but I have since joined the “natural herbs” club instead. (Why are we not funding this!?) I actually even recieved help from a former Buckeye Coaching legend, but I was so afraid to go to therapy that I did not take advantage of this opportunity. I feel like I have no more goals in life as I was a football coach with aspirations of college jobs at some point. I coached HS and even worked with former NFL coaches... However, I have recently come out and have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for over a year now. All of my former teammates and best friends have ignored me since and it’s obvious why... This area isn’t the most accepting and football is sacred here.

Overall, I just feel empty without my parents anymore. My sex drive is about as powerful as a week 16 Browns offense and my drive to live is out of gas at the moment. Honestly, I don’t even need responses. I feel like typing this alone was a minor form of therapy. (I’m not going to harm myself either, ever.)

Thanks for letting me rant!

It's good that you're writing it out and articulating it. Ther isn't an immediate resolution for pain, it Just goes away little by little . I'll come back yo this later. You have to find meaningful things to do with your time. Once you find them and progrss towards them, it'll dissipate pretty quickly.

 

[Bob_The_Cat]

I fall asleep easily, but it's only for an hour max and then I can't sleep at all.

Should I try sleep meds or it's a big mistake? I don't know what to do.. should I try to visit my GP?

I function only on caffein.. I feel dead otherwise.

Have you ever tried meditation or yoga? Meditation has been really life changing for me. It doesn't necessarily take hold immediately, but it's been incredible at teaching how to release thoughts and not become consumed by them. Headspace is a pretty great app.

One of the things I learned in meditation in regards to sleep. If you wake up in the middle of the night and have difficulty falling back to sleep, the more you focus on it, the more your HR increases, and the more your brain wanders. Next time it happens, just remind yourself that "it's OK, this is natural, it will pass." Repeat this in your head with your eyes closed. Focus on taking deep, slow, controlled breaths.

It might take a while to fall back asleep, and it might not work at first. The main thing is to get you to stop playing a negative feedback loop in your head every time you wake up in the middle of the night. Waking up in the middle of the night isn't bad per se', but it becomes bad when we attach a negative emotion/feeling to a neutral event. This is the core of mindfulness. Hope that makes sense. If you have questions or want to know more I have a couple books on the topic I can recommend.

Avoid using your phone, computer, or watching TV 30 min prior to bedtime. The blue light from all these devices really alter your brain activity.

I'd highly suggest light reading, meditation, or journaling before bed. Journaling is especially great is you have difficulties with thoughts running though your head.

Melatonin worked pretty well for me in the past. I stopped taking it a few months ago but it seemed to work.

It's entirely possible you're drinking way too much caffeine during the day which in turn is causing your restlessness at night. It might be a little painful, but it you don't work on the weekends why not try a "reset" so to speak and go caffeine free for a day to see if it helps. It might be a chicken or the egg scenario.

 

[Bob_The_Cat]

I lost both of my parents earlier this year and I am emotionally and physically drained. My relationship is being heavily affected and I drove to a work interview only to walk to the door and walk right back to the car. My father suffered with manic depression, schizophrenia, and bi-polar disorder so I understand that I am genetically predisposed to these, and I also suffer with PTSD (much better now but still have episodes) after a near death experience in 2010. As a result, chronic pain led me to a short opioid addiction for a year or so but I have since joined the “natural herbs” club instead. (Why are we not funding this!?) I actually even recieved help from a former Buckeye Coaching legend, but I was so afraid to go to therapy that I did not take advantage of this opportunity. I feel like I have no more goals in life as I was a football coach with aspirations of college jobs at some point. I coached HS and even worked with former NFL coaches... However, I have recently come out and have been in a relationship with my boyfriend for over a year now. All of my former teammates and best friends have ignored me since and it’s obvious why... This area isn’t the most accepting and football is sacred here.

Overall, I just feel empty without my parents anymore. My sex drive is about as powerful as a week 16 Browns offense and my drive to live is out of gas at the moment. Honestly, I don’t even need responses. I feel like typing this alone was a minor form of therapy. (I’m not going to harm myself either, ever.)

Thanks for letting me rant!

First of all, thank you for sharing. I'm sure that typing that had to be rather difficult. I've never dealt with the pain you're experiencing in regards to your parents or coming out and can only imagine how difficult it must be. Whether or not this helps, know that you're not alone in your pain and that others have not only overcome but triumphed under similar circumstances. You can and will, too.

I'd highly recommend checking out this book by Brene' Brown called Braving the Wilderness:

https://www.audible.com/pd/Bios-Mem...f=a_search_c4_1_2_srTtl?qid=1507943877&sr=1-2

She specializes in shame and vulnerability research. Seriously incredible book that'd I'd suggest anyone listen to. It strikes me as something that might speak to you given what you've been through. Brene' is fun to listen to as well!

Have you been talking to a psychologist at all? You've gone through some serious mental trauma over the past year. Try not to beat yourself up too much. It's going to take some time to process everything you've been though.

Also, as someone who is diagnosed Bipolar myself, I'd be EXTREMELY careful when it comes to smoking weed based on your dad's mental health history. It's known to create serious anxiety and psychosis issues in individuals with mental health conditions (especially bipolar). My best advice would be to get clean and check your diet/sleep schedule and see if that helps your mood at all. However, I understand you may need the herbs for your chronic pain. Try to be cognizant of how smoking is making you feel mentally, though. It's completely possible it's making things much harder on you.

Best wishes