Cassity14
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this was great. glad you posted it, wish I read it earlier.
i went to the pound today. frankly, i need a fucking dog.. cmpanion.. something i know wont fuck me over and can take my mind off stuff.
feels like Im cheating on morgan and forcing her memories out.
found 3 dogs.. was looking for smart, sweet, goofy and playful.
1 was a pit.. the PERFECT dog. connected immedieately.. could be a little smarter, but shes competing against Morgan, the smartest dog ever. White dog. Not the prettiest, not my type, but very sweet eyes. connected with us.
2. was aparently a boxerpit mix, just like morgan. brindle too. not quite my look. Fucking genius dog. Took 2 seconds to figure that out. When I left the cage, she stayed clung to the cage, standing up, looking exasperated.. she let out a huge sigh. when we went to play, she was too into everything else. natural when youre caged. trainer confirmed, she was very independent. i think she was just very smart.. knew I was her way out.. the only knock on morgan was she didnt love me as much as Id like. or was i guess, independent. i want a dog that loves me.
3. was a pretty black pit. everything i was looking for but not genius. loved me the most, hugged me, but i idnt feel connected as much as i thought I should be.
the latter of the two both chose me over madison, which is gigantic.
i didnt get any. idk what im waiting for or if im doing it wrong. its a big investment.. 10 years of a best friend.. 6 minutes in a caged pen.
i think you end up getting a dog when you just realy fucking need to get it over with. or are ready? idk
Don't rush it.
When I was in eighth grade, my beagle got hit on the road and ended up running back to me to die in my arms just a couple minutes later. Fucked me up. That dog and I were literally best friends.
My family got our next dog (another beagle) about 5 months later, and everyone thought they were ready. I wasn't, and ended up never feeling that great of a connection to her until she was like a year - year and a half old. Some of that was me being a teenaged shithead, but the other part was that I just wasn't ready to have another dog. I found myself comparing them way too often.
I was a kid in a four person family, so she got plenty of love and attention. I'd hate to see you not be fully fulfilled living on your own after making that level of commitment.